day 30 – a letter to your reflection in the mirror
Look at yourself in the mirror. You look almost the same as you did three months ago, don’t you? You cannot always see the progress that results from ninety days’ time, but it’s real.
I am a result of a collection of the wonderful human beings who take a few seconds out of their day to acknowledge my presence. To admit that I exist. I’m a part of their life. I don’t think any of them realize how wonderful that it.
I have a best friend who calls me every Tuesday and Thursday at 11:30 in the morning. Sometimes, I reach for the phone and it starts ringing.
I have a sister who keeps me looking (somewhat) fashionable. Parents who believe in the power of a liberal arts education but wouldn’t stop me from doing whatever my heart desires after college.
I have dreams that reminded me to roll out of bed on last Tuesday at 7 in the morning when I didn’t have class at all that day. And strangers who offer advice and insight in 140-character segments.
I have an ex-boyfriend who taught me how to fall in love and heal back together.
I have a friend in the middle of the Bronx who has offered writing and sheer strength to heal my wounds of depression and self-hatred.
I have a musical idol whose heart-on-her-sleeve attitude reminds me to do the same. To write these words now.
I have a God who keeps me from careening into oncoming traffic. A gymnastics coach who taught me how love can change the world.
I have been bullied by girls who remind me why I love being different.
I have a best friend who keeps me in her life despite all the strings tugging her into the Real World. A roommate who decided to love me before she even met me. A friend in Canada who taught me that age doesn’t matter when it comes to friends and that wisdom is invaluable.
I have friends from my childhood who taught me how to be a flexible parent someday and how to take giant risks.
I have a friend in Ohio who taught me how to take initiative if I want to see the world change and reminded me of the power of verbal affirmation.
I have friends in North Carolina who love my sister the best way they know how.
I have a friend whose indecisiveness about me has taught me how to be firm in my own feelings and actions.
I have a track team who taught me to believe in magic, persistence, and the power of the underdog.
I have a best friend who deserves to live in California, far away from the destructive people in her life.
I have three beautiful and talented cousins who taught me to believe in miracles, and a stranger who showed me the power of a mother’s love. A friend in Wisconsin who changes the world each week in less than 15 minutes.
I have a best friend who’s been a big part of my life from 300 miles away and who is always there for me without question.
And I have me. I am the only Kaleigh Erin Somers you will ever meet. I’m almost sure of that.